I am watching your eyes
And follow my salvation
There's so much much shit around me
Such a lack of compassion
I thought it would be fun and games
(it would be fun and games)
Instead it's all the same
(it's all the same)
I want something to do
Need to feel nothingness
In You
I feel the reason, as it's leaving me
No, not again
It's quite deceiving, as I'm feeling
The flesh may be bad
All I do is look for you
And when I fix you
Needed to, just to get some sort of attention
Attention
What does it mean to you
For me, it's somthing I just do
The time has come to realize what you are, what you've done inside
The time has come, we'll have something to talk about
I will tell [too]
Looking back...dumb
And now I realize...old man
how much you really liked him...dumb
This child's mind you terrorized...old man
You came to him...dumb
He really didn't know your lies...old man
Now, his innocence gone...dumb
He's that child you terrorized...old man
This fucking thing that I know, it came to me and you
This fucking thing that I know, because of you
My childhood is gone, because I loved you
My childhood is gone, because I loved you
Be my neighbor
Looking back...child
And now I realize...fucker
How much you really loved him...child
This child's mind you hypnotized...fucker
You came to him...child
You really didn't know his lies...fucker
Now, his innocence gone...child
I'm that child you terrorized...fucker
(Chorus)
But you told me that everybody was my neighbor
They took advantage of me, like I took a trip anywhere
I wish I wouldn't have watched you, I really mean it
My childhood, a failure
What a fuckin neighbor
Why can't I decide
why my feelings I hide?
Always screwing with my mind
that thorn in my spine
Oh sure, it feels fine
wasting all our time
In the back of my mind
a thorn in my spine
Wait to see it before my eyes
Why? don't I turn grey?
Looking all the time
at your face so blind
Feeling uptight
always the same fight
Hey man, you decide
go ahead take your time
Kissing all the time
that thorn in my spine
Wait You can't even see my side
Why? do you play yourself out 'dat way?
Why? You and me always hang
When it's crying
Take me on second place
Which you don't often find
I see a family walking
Always thinking of
Being somewhere else in time
So I fall I fall face
In a rut
I can't seem to get out of
Please wake me
Please give me some of it back
The feelings I had
Sometimes I wish
I could be strong like you
It doesn't matter
Each time I wake
I'm somehow feeling the truth
I can't handle
Let's get this party started
I'm sick of begging you
You make me feel inside
Which I did to you
Let's get this party started
You make me feel inside
I want to be the one
To make myself sign
Time is ticking
It makes me feel content
With what I have inside
Constant paranoia
Surrounds me
Everyone I see
Is out to get me
So I fall I fall face
In a rut
I can't seem to get out of
Please wake me
Please give me some of it back
The feelings I had
Sometimes I wish
I could be strong like you
It doesn't matter
Each time I wake
I'm somehow feeling the truth
I can't handle
Let's get this par 19f ty started
I'm sick of begging you
You make me feel inside
Which I did to you
Let's get this party started
You make me feel inside
I would like to search inside
For all of the things that you will hide
What's the problem?
Can't you seem to
Search through these problems that haunt and taunt you
I smile, while you're afraid
Your run, while you're so in pain
Do you ever see from outside your fears
Thinking about your life
Thinking about your inner fears
I would like to search inside
For all of the things that you will hide
What's the problem?
Can't you seem to open your body and let me touch you
Do you ever see from outside your fears
Thinking about your life
Thinking about your inner fears
I want you to see the life you have disguised
The world of things that hurt you
Kept all these useless lies
I want you to fear, fill you on up inside
Fuck you titty suckin, two balled bitch
With a fat bruised clit
My big compoto bitch
Oh shit, fucking, ass licking, piss sucking, cunt
These nuts on your lips
Kentucky fried kung-pao clits
I don't know what to say
So what don't give up on me now (don't give a fuck) (don't get off on me)
I don't know what to say, so what
Saggy tits swinging between your fat, crusty arm pits
Big ass hairy mole between your pussy lips
Cunt, shit, cock, dick, cunt, tit, barf, piss, balls, ass, pecker, queef
Oh shit, fuck, bitch, damn fuckin diarhea slut, with HIV
(Chorus)
I have fought to find something to say,
But now I found something to say
Fuck you!, Punk ass bitch
Live'n life, don't you cry
My life, pain is God
Many nights, painful thoughts occur
Yell at me, again I'm wrong
In denial, I tried to be your friend
I tried to be a good boy
All I see, a hate deep inside
Startle me, someone save me
Now these memories, fill my heart, they bury me
All I wanna do
You are not my real mother
Is kill you
should I beat and stab and fuck her
Looking back I was never ever right
You were my step-mom who always wanted me out of your sight
I would come walkin' in and I'd say hello,
but you'd slap me and you make some fucked up comment about my clothes,
then I tried to let it pass, but the visions in my head,
were with you with a knife up your ass, laying dead,
so I pop some more caps in your ass,
Now your son is not so fun
Motherfucking bitch
Never try to play me
Save some for me, it's what I like.
I wanna play, you know it's time.
Something is calling, I can't keep from falling.
Come on!
It's on!
Now see it's my fault, angels stabbing me inside.
Nothing changes, just rearranges, for me this time.
Once I cave in, what can I fight?
I can never win, my self I don't like,
I don't like, I don't like, I don't like.
Something is calling, I can't keep from falling.
Come on!
It's on!
You see it's my fault, angels stabbing me inside.
Nothing changes, just rearranges, for me this time.
This time. This... time.
For me, inside. Put me inside.
Hold me, this time. Put me inside.
